22nd October 2014
On the back of a good day at the office, I stood at Crewe station and thought about what me and the team had decided to do. The topic for today was workflow. It made me realise that I’ve been doing this for ten years now and I still don’t really feel like an expert.
Infact I’m not an expert. I’m 100% winging it.
My job has changed over the years. I’ve learnt new skills, more ways to skin a cat. I’ve worked on massive projects, been freelance, worked for big agencies and been hired by savvy people.
Yet I stood there at Crewe wondering what the fuck I was doing.
Now stop for a minute. That should send alarm bells ringing. “I don’t know what I’m doing?”
And then I realised. It didn’t matter.
I’ve got this far by working hard. By working well with people. Working well with what skills I have acquired.
Yet there’s so much I don’t know that it should really make me worry. I know better developers than me. I know better designers than me and I certainly know better UX people than me.
But you know what?
I’m not going to worry about people being better. I’m not going to worry about not knowing something and I’m not really bothered if people think they are better than me.
I’m just going to keep on doing what I do best. Enjoying my career and trying to produce the best work I possibly can. And I’m going to enjoy it while I do.